i hate being like this.....

i'm not sure ....
i start feel confuse....
mom driving me crazy...
n i feel like i'm losing myself
i use to work how i want to work
i fix my the price for my jewellery
i estimate what i should consider in to the price...
i know what i'm doing n how its work
but....when it come to fashion,dresses....
its a headache
i think that mom biz concept is out of date,
but she keep pushing me to follow
i hate that
for her,dresses should not price on
how much work it need,
how much material n etc.
the same style dress should hv the nearly same price,
no matter how much the material n work cost.
i am so headache...
ok,then i ask better she who price the dress,
then she dun one....
sometimes wheni price the dress,
she say is too low,
but,the price she want to gv is too high...
even for me,i wont buy it,
it doesnt worth it...
sometime,the dress she put the price is too low....
omg....i really cant stand it!
maybe i too use to work alone n decide thing by myself,
i cant stand being control
while lossing my biz
she making all mess up
i try to tell her n talk to her,
but she could not understand....
i just dunno what should i do to her...
what can i do?????
i want to leave!!!!!!!

should i or should i not?

should i stay ,or should i leave?
i'm not sure....
i did talk a lil bit with mom
that i wish to further me career in pg or kl
i know,even my mom say i can go,
doesnt mean she wish that i go....
i just dunno....
i'm not satisfy staying like this....
i did think about it,if bro came bac after a yr,then i can leave then...
at least sumone is near,n his wife at ipoh oso....
but what if....
what if he decided to stay for few more yrs?
what should i do then?
i wonder.....

忘了~~-.-''

抱歉~~抱歉~~
在这和忧郁天使，哥，灵芝说声抱歉
特别是忧郁天使和哥
你们是8月生日的。。。
我忘了在这祝你们生日快乐
11/08的忧郁天使
30/08的哥
20/09的灵芝
哥我还是有在那天寄短讯给他
但我的忧郁天使~~~~
嘻嘻~~~刚刚才想起你是11/08生日的~~~-.-"
晚一点在寄短讯给他，才祝他吧！！
哈哈~~他一定会骂我~~~

i'm lost....i noot sure what i want

i'm not sure what i want for my future....
i'm lost....
i feel bad....
cos i fell i'm useless...
n my future is like..nothing...
i mean..nothing in my future....
all my dream n ambitions...gone....
i work for a yr plus,
what do i hv?
what do i gain?
nothing....
when i saw all my fren hv'g their own company....
own career....
i feel like i'm still in the same place where i started
i din move up
n i hate that
i wanted sumthing in my life
i have to save money to leave this place-where i call home
i doesnt want to keep on like this.....
i'm sorry......
i really dun want jz taking care of my parents n lost myself in the same time
i need to go.....
i want to go.....
when everyone leaving,i'm still here....
everyone thought i wanted to be here....
no,i dun want to....
but i have no choice at the moment...
i have to....
cos is not the time for me to leave yet...

1771554

其实那只是一个回忆
我也没有什么意思
让我想起这些号码的人，
并不是她
是因为哥离开了，
我们没陪他回kl，
明天也没陪他去机场。。。
虽然我觉的我不会太想他
毕竟我和哥感情很淡
他离开，我好像没什么感觉
但看他老婆好想很舍不得
也对啦。。
怀孕老公不在，蛮可怜的啦
才会想到1771554
却让她害我感到生气难过
算了。。。
我又不是不懂，我自己本来就很敏感
也许是我自己错吧。。。
本来还想说今晚和她聊天，
我看还是算了
免得她又以为我想暗识些什么

congratulation to bro

congratulation to my bro
that he is not single anymore
but yet still manage to keep his "single life"
except for more responsibility....hehe
tml,at tis moment,he in macau d...
yup...mostly just arrived...
anyway,all the best wishes to him...
n to me....
sigh...even harder for me to leave my parents behind

y i hv to do this?????

ok...it sucks!
y i hv to do this????
y i hv to help them buy the ring!
i cant believe it when my bro ask me help him buy the ring....
1st..waste time
2nd waste money
3rd..waste waste waste time n money
4th..waste my energy
5th waste my time
but..he is my bro,n i still feel i should help him up in this mess....
anyway,i hv no choice as well la
but...hehe..maybe i am a bad gal...
i decided to buy the cheapest ring i can get....
blek~~~

more than a fren,less than a couple

maybe this is the best way for us....
we're not juz fren
but we're not couple either...

relationship

relationship包含的不只是爱，
还有尊重，信任，和迁就
两个人在一起
要懂得接受，也要懂得付出
一味的接受
或一味的付出都不是一件好事
当两个人在一起，
就得对对方负起一定的责任
有是，我真的对感情有点恐惧了
要有很多的顾虑
今天，
我觉得我没帮到她
因为。。我真的不懂怎么帮她
我总不能说，
你女朋友真的很过分
竟让单独和男生出去
但，对我来说真的很过分
我不想给你负面的想法
却又控执不了！
我只能说
你选择了她，你就要学着接受
以她那霸道的性格
她不会迁就你的
你就保重吧
不过，至少你还有我这对耳朵
听你诉说。。。



对了。。。听心。。。
它会告诉你怎么做
也许那不会是最好的办法
但绝对是你想要的方法
这样就够了，不是吗？

曾经的曾经

我们还是那样。。。
一样没什么话题
我们都是不多话的人
所以两个人坐在一起常常会有冷场出现
不过我还是很珍惜我们的相识
曾经的曾经
我们还是朋友

窒息

今天看见笨天使的MV
让我有窒息的感觉
还是以黑为主
我还像看见了死亡天使
很专心的看完整个MV
有种心痛的感觉
知道为什么我说看见死亡天使吗？
除了因为黑色让人联想神秘和死亡
最重要是你的眼神
深邃且忧郁
让人看了觉得心一阵寒冷
很美，也很可怕

笨天使与傻女孩

在地球的另一端的笨天使
远远看着在地球另一端的傻女孩
我们的相遇相识是一种缘份
冥冥中安排好的？
酷酷的你
溶化了吗？
笨笨的我
沦陷了吗？
我们都懂
我们都害怕
害怕走向对方
也许我们并不是天赐的缘份
也许是恶魔的作弄
丘比特的一时失手
月老的老眼昏花
在这平行线
向右走的我回头看向左走的你
刚好，你也在回头看向右走的我。。。

my new coat~~~

i'm so so so happy today....
i got a new coat,which i love a lot
well if i not mistaken,
that coat normal price cost bout rm150++
but ..hehe...he say dun ask just keep it..
ok..i accept..cos i really love that style!
that coat hv tat pilot colar,which is a trent of fashion now a days!!!
yahooo~~~~i love it~~~thanks lot lots~~~
muacks~~~^0^

one tired day.....

today i went to tesco extra
i wanted to buy a table..long banquite table
strong enof to hold my sewing mechine
with fortable price...
well...guess what,i found what i want,
but....the box of the table is too big,i'm not sure it can fit in the car
so i request for delivery
OMG~~~i hv to buy more than rm500 only can request for delivery,
n each item will charge rm10...
-.-"my table onli cos rm88.90
so what should i do????
my aunt car is bigger,
which she ask me to call her when i want to buy the table
but even is bigger,
i'm not sure it can fit in...
anyway,i will measure aunt car n c..haha
tml i will go to court n c weather they hv over there
hmmm....hopefully is not in such a big box...plus...not so heavy...
but but but...not heavy,than mai not strong enof..
not strong enof mai cannot support ym sewing mechine lo?????
-.-"

友。爱

最近我们都常联络。。。
我们什么都聊
聊天聊地
聊你聊我聊她聊他
很开心
我说，“和你聊天，让我忘了所有烦恼，也忘了他。”
你说，“你也是唯一让我忘了她的人。。。”
原来我们都那么喜欢和对方相处时的自己
忘了所有让我们不开心的事
是友，还是爱都不重要
重要的是
我们都可以很开心很坦然的面对对方
谢谢远在台湾的狮子。。。
我的傻天使 ^0^

家人

我一直认为，
家人，是天赐的缘份
我们没能选择
是永远不会变质的感情
看来我是错了
我不喜欢自己现在的样子
也不喜欢姐姐现在的样子
也许你会觉得我做妹妹的做到很绝情
也许我真的是那么绝情
就当我是那么绝情好了
我，不会再因为你而让我感到伤心难过了。。。

轻摇滚

不懂是不是因为狮子的关系
我开始喜欢一些轻摇滚的音乐
感觉很好。。。
呵呵。。被他影响了哦~~
我想。。。
我还是应该改改他的名
两个狮子会把我弄乱啦！-.-"